brr

the past several days, i don't think that i ever completely got WARM ENOUGH. it's been very cold here, snowy, and i just keep being cold. no matter how much i wear or how high i turn up the heater in my car, i don't think i ever thaw something freezing deep inside me. i thought about that in the shower just a little while ago... no matter how warm the water was, i wasn't warm enough, even if my skin turned pink from the heat. and then when the shower runs out of hot water when i am not ready to be done... it only makes the inner chill less defrostable. =(